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The Unbearable Heaviness of Being

My quest for the eternal lightness

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No, I did not read my Bible on Christmas morning. I read David Sedaris instead. I needed a crack-up. Plus, I have to return the book to Sue soon.

And no, it was not a hangover. It wasn’t because I was still boozy to give in to Sedaris’ irreverent stories instead of being in church listening to a Christmas sermon that morning. But the truth is, I’d prefer the former to the latter.

The class attempted to explain the meaning of Easter. The Poles offered their interpretation:

‘It is, a party for the little boy of God who call his self Jesus and … oh, shit’

‘He call his self Jesus and then he be die one day on two… morsels of…lumber’

‘He die one day and then go above of my head to live with your father’

‘He weared of himself the long hair and after he die, the first day he come back here for to say hello to the peoples’

‘He nice, the Jesus’

‘He make the good things, and on the Easter we be sad because somebody makes him dead today’

Limited and problematic vocabulary. No nouns such as cross and resurrection and salvation and remission of sins. But they make a lot of sense to me.

Merry Christmas.




Lighting my fourth candle, knowing it’s almost done; but waiting yet a litle while longer, just one more day, till Christ appears to liberate my deranged world.

Stumbling into the ‘little drummer boy’ at 1U last weekend has gotten the ‘pa-ram-pam-pam-pam’ stucked in my mental jukebox since. Here’s a wonderful piece of the carol by David Bowie and Bing Crosby:

And they told me pa-ram-pam-pam-pam
A new-born king to see pa-ram-pam-pam-pam
Our finest gifts we bring pa-ram-pam-pam-pam
Ra-pam-pam-pam, ra-pam-pam-pam

Peace on Earth, can it be
Years from now, perhaps we’ll see
See the day of glory
See the day, when men of good will
Live in peace, live in peace again

Peace on Earth, can it be
Every child must be made aware
Every child must be made to care
Care enough for his fellow man
To give all the love that he can

I pray my wish will come true
For my child and your child too
He’ll see the day of glory
See the day when men of good will
Live in peace, live in peace again

Peace on Earth, can it be
Can it be

I like the idea of ‘peace on earth’ as requiring humankind’s active participation rather than being an experiential gift promised and ‘rained down’ to the faithful believer. One is a perspective for our engagement to the here and now; a countercultural message to the present reality. The other is a trust in a heavenly bliss awaiting us (and partly experienced now) as we reorganize and align our system of belief and confession to some enlightened views and truths.I wonder…if peace on earth would mean for us to mutually surrender some of our strongly held beliefs and reframe our interpretation of truth (absolutes), if that kind of mercy be conceivable?